So of course no one likes to loose, not one likes to be rejected...especially me. I am that person. I was class president, I was prom queen, I graduated with honors, I have even gotten almost every job I have ever applied for. Seriously, with the exception of weght loss I am usually very successful at things. Well recently I was dealt a blow to my ego. I was rejected from being a mentor teacher at my school (apparently my essay application was not strong enough and I am encouraged to work on them and apply again next year). Now I know that my writing is a weak spot with me so in theory I am ok with this rejection. Yet, it is still very hard to take. It is hard to take and not deal with rejection the way I always have in the past. By stuffing down that feeling with food. I have been doing really well without mindlessly eating, but it has been hard. It has been hard to sit with the emotions that acompany not getting something that I really wanted and felt qualified for and see others be excepted. This does not mean that I am one of those bitter people who hates the people that were selected (I don't because they are some of my dearest co-workers and greatly deserved to be chosen) it is just hard to know that you were not one of the "chosen ones". So it has been about a week and half now and honestly I have decided something....its ok to be a loser. Its ok not to always win. As long as I take something away from this experience and move forward in a postive direction being a loser is ok with me. Plus, I have a feeling that a lot us have been losers at some point in our lives and I am in good company!
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