So for the past week and half I have been sick. The kind of sick that sicks your ass. Despite my best effort I ended up having to stay home from work one day last week. In addition to that my wee one Dylan hasn't been sleeping. I wish I could say this is a phase, I wish I could say it has been week, but it has been three months. Yes you read that correctly, three months of not sleeping through the night. He wakes up several times during the night and says he has to go the bathroom (he goes three drops), he is scared, he needs to be tucked in. After numerous calls to his doctor for suggestions she has said that he is doing what is called checking and has been so helpful trying to give us suggestions that have worked for her or others. Sadly nothing works. No amount of reward or punishments will get my little guy to stay in bed all night long.
In my heart I have known for awhile that this is some sort of anxiety issue surrounding all the major changes in his lift. He has started a new school, my dad (who is his hero) takes him to school now but drops him off and then spends the day with his little sister, his daddy had surgery and was really sick for awhile. It is a lot for a wee one to deal with. Heck it was a lot for me to deal with and I am 30! So i have known for awhile that despite how much I want to know the answer of how to fix this for him and make him feel better and get him to sleep I don't. After much talking and discussion we have decided that we need to call in the reinforcements. I need to ask for some help from someone who is qualified to deal with these issues in children. For all the moms out there, you can just imagine how much I hate the thoughts of having to admit that I am failing as a parent. Now wait....I know that by asking for help with my children when I need it is doing what is best for my child and it isn't failing....but is sure as hell feels like it.
So yesterday with a sad heart I called my pediatrician and asked her to call me back with some names of specialists who could hopefully get us on the right track to helping our wee man. I know that I am doing what is best for my kid, but it is never easy to admit that you need help or that your baby isn't perfect.