Ok so its time for a little honesty around here. I have been talking about how great Mamavation was (and believe me it was) there has been a downside as well. For whatever reason after the campaign ended my eating disorder kicked back into high gear. I don't know if it was the nature of weight in and pressure that I felt or maybe it was that I was working so hard and following a plan very strictly, or the stress of the end of a shitty school year but my mind went crazy. Now thankfully I wasn't full on binging but there were days where I overate, there were a lot of times I ate crap, then felt like crap, then ate more crap because I felt like crap. It is a viscous cycle and I hate it and often times this is very very hard to stop.
I also need to make clear in no way am I blaming Mamavation that group I know has saved my life in terms of health. I also know because of them and their support is the reason I have gotten back on track. My good friend Julie (who is also my WW buddy) said hey being in the ditch is ok as long as it isn't the grand canyon. So I decided that as of Thursday of last week that was it, I was getting my shit together and getting back on track. I have committed to going to every weekly weight watchers meeting for the rest of the summer and doing my best to track my food. I also am trying to get back into the forums and back on twitter to get some support and follow the new mom's in the campaign.
I am thankful though that throughout this I have continued training for 5k's (I did my first official last weekend I will post about that soon). I think that is the reason that in 6 weeks I have only gained 5 pounds (not only but you know what I mean). Also, I have only really gained like 3.5 of my Mamavation weight back because I lost some more after that so my WW weight is different. I know it is confusing which is why I am going to just go with my WW weight from now on. Its summer and my math skills are bad during the school year.
I just wanted to say I am so thankful to be part of the Mamavation community and that I have a great real life support group to help me through these times where I am in the ditch and I have lots of hands helping me out!
Onward in my healthiness journey, have a great week people!