So this vacation I brought no work home. All of my grading is done and I knew I would be spending a few days in NYC and then want to be with my kiddos for the rest of the vacation. Well I was fighting a cold before school got out for the holidays and it has only gotten worse. I even went to the Dr's on Monday to make sure it wasn't something serious. Thankfully just a nasty cold and cough. I was so sick that I cancelled a much look forward trip to NYC with friends for one night and the hubby another.
So that has left me home with no grading, no plans, and no graduate classes to complete. I have seriously found myself wandering around my house. I am so used to being busy...to the point that when my dad died I signed on to sell Jamberry wraps to ensure that was always busy with selling them.
I have been reading, cleaning, and organizing a bit. Since I am sick I haven't felt up to doing much else. We took the kids to see two movies (The Good Dinosaur-which I slept through and Star Wars).
I figured as hard as it it for me to sit around and not do stuff I think that is maybe just what I need to be doing. Taking time to just be with my kids and family. Make myself sit and reflect. I am trying to be focused on myself and take some me time. That is one of the new focuses on the new weight watchers program. Taking me time. That is really hard-to just take time and be....
For me when I am not busy sometimes that means I am left to deal with my emotions. Me dealing with my emotions is not an easy thing for me. This is why I have eating issues. To ignore my emotions I eat or keep busy.
Like I said I am not good at relaxing and not being busy but maybe this is exactly what I need to be doing.